I'm in my first year of a paid ministry position. As a young minister,I’ve noticedfearsthat have crept into my life as I have stepped into ministry.I believe that bymy exposing these fears to the gospel, the church can encourage and speak truth into young ministers like me. Here are three fears that I am battling in my first year as a minister:
I fear that I won’t live up to the expectations of others.Essentially, I fear that I’ll let people down. I’ve watched people sacrifice time, energy and resources in my development because they believe in me, yet I fear the result won’t be what everyone hoped for.Although I have a desire to do amazing things, it helps to remember thatI’m called to be faithful, not amazing.
I fear I’ll really mess up.I specifically fear messing up theologically and morally. Even with a seminary education, the thought that I am accountable to the Lord for how I live andhow I teachcreates a fear within me that can feel paralyzing.Yet, I’m thankful for godly men who walk alongside meand who are just as committed to my equipping and holiness as I am.
I fear my ministry won’t amount to anything.I believe this fear is rooted in the false idea that ministry finds its success in thenumber ofpeople it attracts. I’ve been saturated in a gospel-centered disciple-making culture for years, yet I still fight buying into this lie.I know I must align myself with what God deems most significant, and I’ve foundmuch encouragement when my pastor celebrates what God is doing within the ministry I'm leading.Through my pastor encouragingme and celebratingwith mein the seemingly small things, he helps remind me of what’s significant in the eyes of the Lord.